I am depression, hear my cry.
I am the voice inside that tells you how worthless you are and how you will never amount to anything.
I am the reflection in the mirror that tells you how fat and ugly you are and that nobody will ever love you.
I am the knife that tears at your heart from the inside, leaving wounds that may never heal and scars that hide the innocence you once knew.
I am the war that constantly rages inside you—never allowing you peace and always forcing you to imagine the worst in every situation—in every person you meet.
I am the part of you that pushes away the people who love and care about you because you are not worthy of love—you are not worthy of someone who cares.
I am the piece of your soul that forces you to stop caring—to stop caring about everyone and everything that once brought you joy.
I am the words that you are dying to say—but nobody wants to hear.
I am the cries that nobody believes—the cries that are ignored and stifled by people who tell you to just be happy and to get over it and to stop being so dramatic.
I am the reason why everyone disappears—because nobody wants to be around someone who is always so sad and angry.
I am the reason why people stop asking how you’re doing—because they know before you even say a word, and because they don’t want to know.
I am the eyes that were once so full of life—the eyes that can no longer hide how hopeless and lifeless and empty you feel inside.
I am the blade that pierces your skin and the poison that ravages your body when you reach that moment of utter darkness and despair—that moment when you would give anything just to feel something again.
I am all that is left after you are gone.
I am the reason why they say you were selfish for leaving them all alone.
I am the reason why they blame you for not trying—for not fighting harder.
I am the secret they say you never shared.
I am the cries for help they say they never heard.
I am the reason why you’re gone.
I am depression.
Nobody heard my cry.
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I am a person who struggles with mental illness—a person who is asking for help to find joy in life again.
I am a person who carries the burden of living on her shoulders every day and views life as a messenger of an insurmountable amount of loss, grief, and pain.
I am a person who tries to live and love with a heart that has been broken into a million pieces.
I am a person who feels she has become a burden to the people she has leaned on for support.
I am a person whose eyes people refuse to meet—because she is known as the thief of people’s joy.
I am a person who knows the pain of wanting to die every day that she lives.
I am a person who fights a never-ending battle with herself—a person who struggles just to get through each day.
I am a person who is drowning and struggling to stay above water—a person who needs help.
I am a person who is screaming for someone to listen and pleading for someone to believe that she really is hurting even more than she lets anyone know.
I am a person who is willing to fight, but knows that she can’t do it alone.
I am a person who is pleading with you to not turn away—to not ignore her pain because it’s too hard or because it makes you feel uncomfortable.
I am a person who has so much to live for, but needs someone to help her see—someone to remind her of the beauty in living.
I am a person who needs to be reminded that there is hope and that there is promise in the future.
I am a person who is more than her mental illness—a person with so much to offer the world.
I am a person who is asking you to fight with her and to not shy away from the conversation.
I am a person who is asking you to take her hand and walk this journey with her—to see her as whole, and not broken.
I am a person who is strong and brave and capable of amazing things—a person whose life is worth fighting for.
I am a person who suffers from depression, and this is my battle cry.